I would have lost hundreds of thousands of dollars if I hadn’t listened to my intuition

I would have lost hundreds of thousands of dollars if I hadn’t listened to my intuition. In 2001 my late husband, Jeff Cornell and I decided to sell our family home we’d lived in for ten years. We raised our girls in this home and we had so many wonderful memories there. Jeff had hoped we would retire in this home and I don’t think he ever wanted to move from there. He grew up in the same home most of his childhood, where I had moved around more often growing up. Everything within me told me we had to move and we had to move NOW. It nagged me and gnawed at me morning and night.

Years before, when we started to look for a home to purchase, we wanted so badly to live in Seattle. If you’re from Seattle you know the housing market skyrocketed and hasn’t stopped since the nineties. We didn’t know how we’d ever be able to own a home in Seattle. I said to Jeff, “we need to get ready.” “We need to prepare so when the moment happens, when the prices and interest rates fall, we’re ready.” I specifically said, that we were going to buy outside of Seattle in a good school district when the prices and interest were at their lowest and we would sell when the prices were at their highest and that would allow us to own a home in the city limits of Seattle.

Then it happened! The market tanked in the crash of 2008 and the economy fell quickly. People lost a lot and we too were quite nervous. We had just opened Hidden Hand Tattoo the year before and our second child had just been born. What would this mean for our business? Would we survive? I kept hearing people say most businesses fail in the first five years. The fear was strong and we felt the pressure. We had been building our credit and savings for years to be ready when this exact moment happened. We continued to knuckle down for a little while after the crash. Then that knowing within me came back strong that we had to move. So we did it! We purchased our first home, in Shoreline WA at the lowest price and lowest interest rate there had been in a very long time.

In my life I’ve had 5 very distinctive moments when if I hadn’t had listened to my intuition I would have lost hundreds of thousands of dollars. Each time it felt very uncomfortable. It felt very scary and my fear was at times, very high. I didn’t want to listen. I wanted to feel comfy and cozy and as if nothing was going to happen. I wanted to take what seemed at the time the easier way. However, all five times if I hadn’t had listened, my life would have drastically changed and I don’t think for the better. Each time I listened, my life got better and bigger than I could have dreamed up for myself. Each time there were moments when moving forward I was tested over and over again. At times it was very hard to keep moving forward. Every single time, there were people around me questioning and confronting me that what if I was wrong. That inside voice persisted that my intuitive feelings were right… and to follow it. Eventually, the more my abilities grew, to not follow my intuition, was becoming more uncomfortable than following it. If I would have listened to others and shut down my inner knowing, I would have lost big time.

These feelings and knowings I’ve had, I often couldn’t shake or forget. When I didn’t listen to them, I found out why I should have listened and every time I kicked myself. “I knew this was going to happen!” “Why didn’t I listen!?” In my early thirties, I had finally had enough. I wanted to know why did this happen sometimes but other times it didn’t. What if I could have this insight on demand, not just when it was screaming at me and making me feel uncomfortable. What if I could have some control over the volume of my intuitive insights. I sought out teachers and trained diligently for years and years. I’ve always been a student of the metaphysical. My first reading and tarot cards came at the age of nine! I grew up in an environment where culturally we were outsiders and didn’t belong to the dominate religion of the city. I knew religion wasn’t the way for me but talking to the dead and knowing how to better read people was always an obsession. My extra sensory perception was also a survival mechanism for me in enduring my childhood and beyond. It just never went away and was stronger at times.

Since Jeff’s passing I took a break from teaching. I had just finished teaching my first online course that was very successful and rewarding, right before he was diagnosed with stage four colon cancer. I didn’t feel like I had the capacity to hold space for others with teaching again for a long time. The loss of Jeff tested my faith and spiritual practices and in many ways I had to learn who I was without him. When we have great loss there is also a great opening that often follows. For me, one of the openings I experienced was my intuition and awareness getting even stronger. Often complete breakdowns lead to breakthroughs. That very loud and uncomfortable knowing I’ve had again for over a year, is that I have to get back to teaching. It has nagged and gnawed at me just like it did with the house and in all the times before when it didn’t feel convenient, like the right time, circumstances and so many other excuses I could come up with.

We are in a time of a lot of fear, overwhelm, disconnection and uncertainty. I can’t think of a better time than now to come together in community, to re-commit and deepen our spiritual practices and abilities. To know that we can move through any time and space in a way where we create the most flow, joy and abundance. It’s all available to you.

My in-person course at Altar begins this Sunday, April 19th. Join me for a three-part series on Intuitive Development and Spiritual Empowerment. Every other Sunday we will meet for two hours. Class is curated to those in attendance and space is limited.

I hope you’ll join us for this series. If you can’t make it this time but are hoping to join in the future, shoot me an email! I’d love to hear dates that work with you in the future, or if you’re interested in online classes.

Many blessings,
April